Waiting (CD 26, 5DPO)

Generally around CD 26 I'd be getting antsy to start taking EPTs but of course my silly body had to wait until CD21 (!!!) to ovulate. Grrr! Fertility Friend is telling me to wait until CD38 (seriously!?) to test. I think I'll probably make it to CD30 or 31. I've been feeling some twinges in my abdomen which I'm hoping is a tiny little baby making itself at home but I'm trying not to get my hopes up about this month. We were doing so well with the sex-timing until Spike went missing. If Fertility Friend is right and I didn't ovulate until CD21 then we might have missed it but if I ignore those facts (silly temp shifts, OPKs and fertile CM) and hope that I ovulated earlier then maybe we have a chance.
Still no kitty. My heart is broken. If I conceive this month I'll name the baby Spike. I miss him so much. xo

Dreams (CD 15)

My Auntie Pat called my mum this morning to ask how I was. My mum hasn't told my aunt that we are trying to get pregnant. My aunt said she had a dream last night that I had a little baby girl. My aunt has often had prophetic dreams so I'm taking this as a good sign. Also, I should be ovulating in the next few days and then we have the "2WW" (two week wait). I'm feeling pretty good about this month. I have less stress, we've figured out where the problem most likely lies and although we haven't yet done anything to combat the problem I'm feeling really optimistic. xo

Silly Boys (CD 10)

James thinks I got pregnant last night. I tried to explain to him that for a woman with a 30-33 day cycle who usually ovulates between CD17 and CD20 that intercourse on CD9 is most likely just recreational/practice. He doesn't care. He's convinced. I don't agree with him but I like his confidence. He said, "we can still have sex every other day until you ovulate and then after you ovulate but it doesn't matter -- you're pregnant". His confidence gives me strength. I love him so much. xo
ps: I knew it was too early but I took an ovulation test anyways. It was negative. But I love to see the pale blue line slowly build throughout the beginning of my cycle until the monstrously triumphant bright blue surge on Ovulation Day. I'm happy to know that I ovulate. Makes me feel proud that I'm doing something right.