Still Waiting (CD31, 10DPO)

I took an EPT yesterday and got a big fat negative. I must have stared at it for about 5 minutes willing it to change colour. I knew that it was likely too early for a positive (only 9 DPO) but it still sucks. I had been having such a horrible day (still looking for Spike, almost getting a ticket from the cops because james and I both have expired licences, a stressful 1.5 hour job interview, and a sad/grumpy husband) and I had the mentality of "c'mon Fates, give us something good". Ha! Silly, silly me. So then I just felt worse and have continued to all day today. Yippee!

Waiting (CD 26, 5DPO)

Generally around CD 26 I'd be getting antsy to start taking EPTs but of course my silly body had to wait until CD21 (!!!) to ovulate. Grrr! Fertility Friend is telling me to wait until CD38 (seriously!?) to test. I think I'll probably make it to CD30 or 31. I've been feeling some twinges in my abdomen which I'm hoping is a tiny little baby making itself at home but I'm trying not to get my hopes up about this month. We were doing so well with the sex-timing until Spike went missing. If Fertility Friend is right and I didn't ovulate until CD21 then we might have missed it but if I ignore those facts (silly temp shifts, OPKs and fertile CM) and hope that I ovulated earlier then maybe we have a chance.
Still no kitty. My heart is broken. If I conceive this month I'll name the baby Spike. I miss him so much. xo

If We Don't Get Pregnant this Month, I'm Blaming the Cat (CD 23, 2DPO)

He's still missing. It's been a week. We have searched and searched but still no luck. Our hearts hurt and even though we know we should be having sex we can't bear to. Then I slammed my finger in the car door last night. Nothing like excruciating pain and 2 hours in the ER to get you in the mood. You happy now Spike? You get to stay the baby for one more month!
My fertile CM is gone and my temp started to rise this morning. I guess it's the start of the 2WW.

Happy Birthday to Me (CD 20)

We had the least romantic sex ever last night. I've never more felt less like having sex. My kitty is missing and I can't stop crying. But the show must go on. Poor James, I started crying half way through. This is the crappiest birthday ever. xo

Woo Hoo (but with sarcasm) (CD19)

My fertile CM decided to make an appearance. Good news in deed. Bad news is that my cat is missing and I can't stop crying long enough to have sex with my husband. Maybe if I drink enough wine coolers I'll get in the mood... or at least pass out and give my husband permission to have his way with me. Ah romance. What a lovely way for a child to be conceived. xo

Keep on Keeping On (CD 17)

My body seems a little confused right now. I had what appeared to be a positive OPK on CD 14 but haven't really had any fertile CM. I stopped recording my temperature last month since it seemed to be pretty consistent and I was assured that I am ovulating. I'm trying not to obsess too much but I've been taking my temp for the past week so I could pin-point ovulation and it's been all over the place. It could be that we're having a ridiculous heat-wave and James has been waking up at 4:30AM for work so I wake up early every morning, sleep a couple more hours, and then wake up later. Either way, we're having lots of sex so we're doing all we can. xo

Dreams (CD 15)

My Auntie Pat called my mum this morning to ask how I was. My mum hasn't told my aunt that we are trying to get pregnant. My aunt said she had a dream last night that I had a little baby girl. My aunt has often had prophetic dreams so I'm taking this as a good sign. Also, I should be ovulating in the next few days and then we have the "2WW" (two week wait). I'm feeling pretty good about this month. I have less stress, we've figured out where the problem most likely lies and although we haven't yet done anything to combat the problem I'm feeling really optimistic. xo